When shit hits the fan, I duck.

We've all heard some version of what happened when S. B. Dissanayake decided he was going to come back to the place he spent his undergraduate days. Most say the students neatly organized themselves (as they are very used to doing) in an orderly fashion and happily hooted the Minister of Higher Education off the premises. Some more inclined to dramatic moments say they even threw stones, in an organized fashion. Some say the minister was "taken hostage". Either way, we all know the University Students' Union is currently very unhappy (as they are used to being) about the consequences of what happened that day.

Last Thursday, us 3^rd years from the English Department coolly walked into Dr. Wickramagamage's lecture on Jane Austen's Emma, oblivious (by choice) to what was going on around us. The Peradeniya Student's Union had declared a token strike and organized a protest rally in Colombo, followed by demonstrations in Kandy over the next few days. The seven of us (and a number of others) still went to class.

Who went to class? Those who call themselves 'anti-rag', or more diplomatically, 'non-rag'.

Why did they go to class? Some say "protests don't work", others, that it's "political". If protests don't work then what does? Do we, who stay away from the protests, have better ideas about how to deal with these situations? If taking part is political, is not taking part not political? Are we naive enough to think we can be neutral? Where does all the cultural theory we learn in class go? What happened to you political activists and rebels fighting against the "frustration" of our generation that has nothing to "fight for"? Where were you that day?

Hiding.

Hiding behind flesh and bone, conformity and the fear of the unknown.

I didn't take part because I just didn't give a shit beyond an indignant comment while passing the TV. Half of you didn't, simply because you're anti-rag, or more diplomatically, 'non-rag', and therefore anti-student-union. Tell me it just didn't bother you; it just didn't bother you because you're anti-rag.

Yes, I differentiate myself from those who call themselves 'anti-rag', or more diplomatically, 'non-rag'. But I am no different: I was not part of the protest; I was not even part of the token strike. I was part of the distinctly 'anti-rag', or more diplomatically, 'non-rag' group of students attending class that day. It never struck me that if I was to be considered a thinking individual, I must needs have known why I was in class that day.

Why was I in class that day? I didn't know. I had not thought about it.

So I thought about it.

Now that I have thought about it, I still don't know where I stand. But I have thought about it, and that makes me that much better than all of you who have not.

Have you thought about it? Thought about it for yourself, as an individual not belonging to a group? Have you thought about it as someone concerned, someone affected, someone in the direct line of assault? However else you'd like to put it, we have this much in common with the accused: we are students of the Sri Lankan University system.

Take a stand; take some responsibility. Decide. If you're going to be undecided, be decidedly undecided.

Taking God Everywhere

By the time most of us get to university, we've been completely brainwashed. First our parents, then our teachers and to some extent our friends play such a huge role in determining what we believe that by the time we're undergraduates we don't know how to differentiate our own thoughts from those of others around us. So university, they say, is going to undo all this "teaching" and train us how to "think". Once we leave with a rolled up piece of paper that gives us yet another label (that of "educated degree-holder"), we're supposed to be the sole owners of our own minds. Sounds good so far.

But what really happens? As a student of the humanities, all I can say is that what you see is not what you get. Typically, or ideally, a university will teach you the accepted norms, and then teach you to question it. So we learn about racism and political anarchy, language and hedgemony, sexism and contradictory ideologies; we also learn about the body and the mind, truth and falsehood, God and man. Then we are told: there is no right and wrong, you make your own 'Soup a la Life' and try to impress us. So we undergraduates who were so comfortable being brainwashed are suddenly forced to make choices we don't know whether we even want to make. The freedom is ours, but the whole thing is really a trap.

Now I see you raising your eyebrows. University is a period of freedom where the mind-shackles are removed, where you become adults, and you let your soul become what you want it to be. But think about this:

1. How many of us feel comfortable holding on to the traditional belief that there are fundamental differences between men and women?
2. How many of us feel comfortable saying that "I believe my mother knows best for me"?
3. How many of us feel comfortable saying that the universe was created in seven days by an all-powerful God, and then admitting that we don't really know how exactly?
4. How many of us are comfortable saying that at the end of the day there are fundamental truths, and there is one ultimate Truth?

I don't think there are many of us in these groups. Even if there are, there are even less of us that are comfortable holding and asserting these opinions in the classroom where the mantra is feminism, post-modernism, post-structuralism, agnosticism, sexual liberalism, relativism and every other "ism" anybody ever came up with. True we have the freedom to choose what we want; but we are also subtly told what we should want.

Colossians 1:19-20 tells us that "it pleaseth the Father...by him to reconcile all things to himself"; does this not mean that these issues we face in the classroom can be reconciled to God? Then if through Christ all things are reconciled to God, do we see the truth of this statement in our classrooms at university? If we don't, then what are we doing about it? What are we doing to gain the necessary knowledge and Biblical understanding that allows us to reconcile these apparently irreconcilable issues of "modern education"? Do we even care?

As Christian Students struggling to hold our ground on a firm faith in God and Christian precepts, in a world that is constantly changing, life is full of contradictions. But we need to start facing these contradictions and figuring them out for ourselves, just like we do with everything else that we come across in our studies. We need to stop separating the classroom text from the Bible and the Bible from the rest of our lives. We need to start incorporating Christian values into what we discuss in classrooms, what we write in our essays and what we say in our exam answers. We need to start being Christians every where we are.

New Delhi: Headed for…

We understand that when somebody else pays you to do something which is of no benefit at all to them, there's gotta be a catch. It's just that we don't think about what that catch might be. At least I don't. After loitering around at the Katunayake Airport for roughly three hours (we HAD to be there that early – what if a hippie wearing sunglasses at 3 in the morning brought in an explosive joint of Himalayan weed? We'd need the time to come back to – right?) we finally boarded what seemed like the 1:16 model of a regular commercial air-plane. Take off was shaky to say the least, and honestly, I was nearly peeing in my pants. The flight and landing itself were not so bad, but Chennai was.

See, I had been warned (roughly fifty-two times) that if there's one place in the world you don't want to be – it's Chennai. Of course, as with all other pieces of valuable information I get in the form of warnings, I didn't take much notice. But, I discovered for myself later (as with the follow-up to all other pieces of valuable information I get in the form of warnings) that I wished I had listened. Why?

1. Chennai is hot. Especially immediately after getting off a plane. The heat hits you like a very heavy pillow wielded by your sixteen-year-old brother who is just discovering his physical prowess. Then it wraps you up like a blanket, sticks to your skin and makes you want to puke. It's not nice, I say.
2. Chennai is noisy. The airport is shielded from the rest of the city by a plastic wall (ongoing construction) and the effect is really eerie. Beyond the wall is left to your imagination, which will be complemented by the sound of five-thousand car horns tooting roughly fifteen different tunes each second, fifteen babies crying in the immediate vicinity and one-hundred women and men (each) shouting coarsely in an unintelligible language. All this happens at roughly one-thousand-two-hundred decibels.
3. Chennai is boring. First, there are the queues. You can stand behind one-hundred-and-fifty people of different colors, shapes, sizes and smells for close upon half an hour while the immigration guy checks your visa at the rate of one letter per minute. Then there are the lounges. The airport has all of four duty-free shops at the departure lounge. There's lots to do including staring at the shiny tiled floor and staring at the shiny tiled floor and staring at the shiny tiled floor.
4. Chennai steals. Ok, here's where I admit my whole view of the trip is a little biased. My case got opened either at Colombo or Chennai. Either way, I discovered it at the latter and decided to be rude to a check-in officer on those grounds. I understand that these things (always) happen, and I also understand that most people are unable to control their completely rational urges to look inside other people's bags and take anything worth taking. But I can't understand why these things must be done so obviously. It colors a persons whole future! (A persons whole future in that airport at least!) The tiny (and obviously very effective) padlock which was entrusted with guarding the whole of my belongings was missing. Not only had it been picked and taken off my bag, it had also been LOST. (NOTE: if any of you reading this are regular airport pick-bags, please remember to pick the locks carefully and replace them once the deed is done). If the damned thing had been there I wouldn't have noticed that the bag had been opened. My whole problem was with the fact that who ever did it wasn't scared enough of me to bother with hiding it. <grr…> At least my stuff was where I had put it – ignoring the little bits of dust between the layers of clothes – so my ego wasn't hurt too much. I can't say the same for Leo though, whose case (being more firmly locked – with a four-digit code etc. – and therefore more permanently broken) had been popped open on our return flight and came bouncing down the conveyor belt half open and held together with plastic tape. I was told at Chennai that my complaint was too late since I was already out of arrival and in departure (transit). Apparently I should have checked my bag as soon as I got it (after all, I AM imagining that some psycho at the airport has nothing better to do than rifle through my underwear and other such belongings). My complaint should have been made at the baggage claim, where passengers are not alerted to the regular procedure of making such complaints because "these things don't happen daily". People regularly carry guns, explosives and manure in their hand luggage, and this is why passengers are alerted every ten feet to remove such items from their belongings before checking in. Remembering this, Leo immediately complained to some slut bathed in make-up who was hanging around in a Sri-Lankan Airlines sari. She promptly brought two security officers and two airline officials who each weighed Leo's case in turn, to determine if anything had been taken (something had – a pretty jersey which was not heavy enough to make a detectable change on the airport baggage scales), tried very hard to fix it and did precisely nothing about the fact that it had been opened at all. I stood around wondering why it was morally wrong for me to pick up the case and hit these people with it. Leo's face told me she was thinking of worse.

Regardless of out reservations about the place, we got back on our flight, this time to Delhi. Let me explain my opening. The India-Sri Lanka Foundation was sponsoring our trip to Miranda House College New Delhi, because it was an "international forum" for "Deconstructing the Millennium Development Goals". They supplied us with air-tickets on a flight which served 200ml of (hard) water per person and nothing else. If you really needed more water (say, if you were seriously dehydrated or something), you could pay for it – with Indian rupees or your ass (I really don't know if they'd accept even your ass though). They gave you eight to ten inches of space between your knees and the seat in front of you, if you were short like me. If you happened to be taller, your knees got cushioned.

I'm sorry I'm complaining. The flight attendants were not bad; the guys were very friendly, and very tall. They also had very nice Indian accents. The India-Sri Lanka Foundation people were awesome. There's not enough thanking we can do them. They are patient, helpful, friendly, understanding and also very rich with very little spending opportunity. They went to a lot of trouble to get visas done, flights and accommodation arranged and hospitality taken care of, and our asses packed to New Delhi. We thought we didn't deserve the opportunity. Only the opportunity didn't deserve us.

Something Happened

S!gh… after being cyberologically dead for a (very) long time, a drastic dose of inspiration has hit me:

New Delhi, India.    

I would first like to issue a warning to those of you who are planning a trip to the mentioned area anytime soon enough to remember what you read here: DO NOT READ THIS. Move to the next interesting thing.

To those of you who are thinking of going but have not decided yet, READ THIS AND BASE YOU DECISION TO GO ON THIS POST AND THIS POST ALONE.

When magazines tell you about the dirt, smell and dust of the Indian cities it all sounds very romantic. You can feel it right? When you actually see it, smell it and get it in your eyes, the only thing you want is to be boarding the next flight home. Because?

1. The dust is everywhere. It's in the street, inside the car, between the pages of your book and under your well-dressed-and-highly-made-up friendly Indian girl's nails. There is no escaping it. Two hours in an enclosed place and the soap won't bubble in the shower cus you're so dirty. It's even on your plate and your glass. It floats on your water and dissolves in your tea. It paints the city a ghostly grey-and-brown. The trees are ashen, and it has nothing to do with the fact that it's winter. It's like being in a cobweb. You don't want to sit in it and do nothing, so you struggle to get away from it, but the more you struggle the more in smothers you. You're literally breathing it, and sometimes even tasting it.
2. The people are dirty. This is not a figure of speech. True, 15-degree weather doesn't prevent the girls from baring their cleavage and half their legs, and friendly conversations are carried out in the form of light humping, but they are literally dirty. When you look at somebody, you need to just look at them in the face, be duly inspired by their beauty and not look further. Unfortunately no one gave me this advice. From the khol on the eyes to the rings on the toes is a HUMONGOUS transition in hygiene levels. The average female toenail is 2.5cm long, chipped, painted pink or green at the bottom and bordered by a 0.3cm thick line of dirt at the top. People don't change their clothes. I'm serious. And the smell of stale sweat follows 70% of the population. Note; I am not talking about street-hawkers and beggars. I am talking about college kids and professors.
3. The food is disgusting. As my unfortunate friends who accompanied me on this trip will bear witness, Indian food in Sri Lanka is the real thing. It must be. Seems the average Indian's inability to distinguish between 500g and 0g of salt (or any condiment for that matter) in 500ml of curry has chased all decent cooks and chefs out of the country. Rice is boiled for four hours so all flavor is absorbed by the water, then the water is thrown out. Vegetables are boiled in water until they reach a semi-solid consistency and then allowed to cool before serving. Meat and fish are rare, and when available taste like vegetables anyway. Eating habits are similar to those of monkeys and crows, and exercising etiquette will guarantee you no food, and when you have food, no eating. Some pointers:
   1. Buffet queues do not exist. Run your eyes over the available mashes; pick one, run for it. Start eating from the dish itself.
   2. If you are very particular and have to serve your food on a plate, then go for the paper plates. That is of course unless you just love that taste of stale oil mixed with dust and the saliva of whoever it was that ate from that particular plate last.
   3. Eat a lot of gravy (colored water mixed with vegetables from last nights' left-overs) so you don't have to drink water.
   4. If you really need to drink water, then drink straight from the filter or your hand. Chances are 1 to 99 that'll be cleaner than a glass.

Urgh, I'm sleepy and bored. Chances are you are too, considering the levels of creative-genius I've displayed in my writing skills…

More on 'Gods own country' later… whether you like it or not.